Self Destruct

I look up at you,
From under tear soaked lashes,
Blood pooling in my mouth,
A sting across my jaw,
An agony filled cry,
That no one will ever hear.
I swallow...
The bitter sweet
Crimson drink.
A fist full of hair,
Ripped from my scalp,
Scattered in the air,
Like hopes and dreams,
Never to be fulfilled.
I take it...
I deserve no more.
I will self destruct...
One last time.